My computer is back!!!! J called me yesterday. I missed 2 calls from him, one our stupid fax picked up. He eventually called back! I got my bill list back too!!!! He left our new lap top here, it was in the closet. I never looked for it in there, i just go straight in for my candle stuff ::: tunnel vision::::
He is safe and doing ok. They left Bridgeport and now he is talking thats where he wants to be stationed lmao. It was 23 degrees at night. I told him, its the end of summer and thats cold, he says, but its the end of sept. @@ What ever. He must forget how much i cursed NJ winters.
Dont get me wrong, I loved Nj's 4 seasons. But im a Cali girl. The cold is just not my thing especially if it starts in the summer.

I went to the dr yesterday and got a few things cleared up. I have to go in for my coloscoply (sp?) which im dreading. I know its going to hurt. Hopefully my precancerous cells are completely gone and i can quit with the biopsy's. Ive been doing this since 2001 when they first found the cells on my vulva, and i had them burned off, since ive been here, ive had 2 biopsy's, and they have had to be resent in over and over to be read @@

Juli just woke up from her nap and she is burning hot, i took her temp and it scanned from 103.3 to 104.0 . I called the dr, which is closed this afternoon and im about to take her to the er =(. Its to high of a fever for her little body they said. got to go. I need to get the kids to my friends house!

My computer has crashed! This just sucks. I was in the middle of making a tart order and debated on just refunding the order since i wouldnt be able to print my labels, then i remembered our lap top, the "old" one. J had it linked to the printer, yay me! Not!
He let some stupid kid mess with it and "fix it". Now not only can i not print, i cant get on AOL lmao. Ill tell ya, they always say when your husband leaves, things go wrong. And they are not kidding. I lost our bill list and luckly i saved all our passwords to our accounts onto my external hard drive. We have maybe 3 bills but still, He had everything laid out for me on what it costs and what transfers to what savings, money market ect..... Im so lost. I hope he calls soon or can call!! I put a help me im stranded ad up on our forum out here, and i got 2 really nice responses. One guy was going to come in the morning and help, the other called and just told me to install the restore cd. Which was possibly a mistake since it wiped out EVERYTHING @@. Oh well, i have Aol back. Now i have to work on my printer. I lost all my favorites too =(.
I borrowed my friends printer to get this order done and its late so im headed to bed! Im so exhausted I hate depending on computers, but love the ease.

Hubby has been gone for a few days now and i think the kids and I are on a good routine.
We didnt do a whole lot this weekend. Its still so hot here. I wish the pool was still open.
Im room mom for A's class this year. Last year i flaked out big time. I was room mom for T's class, but her teacher was never there, so towards the end of the year, i just quit going. This year i will be different lol. I just graded so many papers. There is no way i could be a teacher. And that was one of my dreams growing up.
I went down to the home daycare place today too, i turned in my "new" background check. I have to go before another board @@. This time the director did the leg work and talked to the Deputy and the Admin of PMO. She documented everything and will be going at bat for me. Thank goodness. I told her i was close to throwing in my towel. My heart couldnt take anymore of this bs. I had an awesome reference written in by one of my past parents who is one of my friends now. We have kept in touch all these years. Her letter was very touching and made me cry! Its been really neat watching my little Zoe Bug grow over the years. When i think of her, i still picture the sweet baby i use to hold! Its so amazing how fast time goes.
T has school pics tomorrow and A has baseball pics too. I have pics coming out my arse. I feel like lately im handing money over left and right for different things, cha ching, cha ching. Who new sports could be so expensive. Oh then you cant forget the coaches gifts, Im sure there will be a team mom present ( not like she has done all that much) and then the party lmao. good grief X'S 2!
I made it to the gym today, not to work out lol i had to sit my day, but i made it. hahaha. While J is gone this 30 days. I would like to drop the rest of this 6-8 lbs vacation put on me. :::: Hangs head:::::
I did walk a mile tonight though. Tomorrow will be better! I will actually go and work out!

I got some pretty good news today. I went down to the base inspectors office on Thurs. This time i spoke to the main shit stain his self. After reviewing my case, he found a few things, 1. PMO (the police) listed me as not only the victim, but a suspect as well @@ and 2. that i was innocent, that it was not mutual like originally found. He apologized and pulled his weight and got someone in PMO to get my code changed!!!!! After the big circle of " everyone did there job, go here", i finally have it finished. Thankfully i got this done while i was still on island, cause if i would have waited until i got back to the states, id be screwed with the negative code next to my name, and pop on every back ground check! I will go back in next week and redo a back ground check just to make sure and so i have the right one to turn back into the home daycare place.

J finally got on his plane, after rescheduling his plane 3x's, yes, 3x's, he just called me from Alaska. Soon he will be on his last flight to where he needs to be. Funny thing though. They had 6 days of mountain training planned, and can not be rescheduled, too bad 3 of those days were here @@. Its major that he has it since he will be IN THE MOUNTAINS lmao. I guess the Marines didn't see that as too valuable or needed.

We had our unit family day today. It was pretty good! The kids had a blast, poor A was feeling sick, but he hung in there. They had so much set up for the kids to do, it gets better every year! Here are some pics

If the kids didn't hit the target wit the ball, they let them go up and hit it and make the "jail bird" go under lol

Juli's reaction to the fire dog

The sign reads, "Parental supervision required". Notice who is at the table. Yes, those are grown men , Marines, at the arts and crafts table ...... COLORING! LMAO i had to take the pic, one even showed off his pic, he was so proud hahahaha

Juli wanted in the big truck, and this Marine manning the truck wanted to take her up, so i took a pic lo

Beautiful Okinawa

I'm wondering if i will ever get it together. Lately it seems i just cant stop crying and the littlest things set me off.
I had the crappiest day yesterday with probably some of the most heartbreaking news i could receive at this point. I submitted an application to do home daycare. I did it in the states and I'm re applying out here. Well i had to go before a review board because there was an incident that happened to me the first 4 months we got on island. I was attacked by a lady, in my own home, in front of my kids. The end result was considered a "mutual afray". There was nothing mutual about it. I had to go to a hearing and everything on this. J had to hear a lot of crap from this, basically that he cant control his family etc... all this happened while he was DEPLOYED in mainland Japan. I was given a warning as "punishment" which is the lowest form, the attacker was given probation and other things. We didn't fight the term of it being a mutual affray beings that they use that for everything out here and i never in a million years thought it would ever come up again. Until yesterday when my request for childcare got denied. I'm so heart broken right now. I submitted everything to this board on what happened, police records, which show everything in my favor, i even have the Colonel backing us up. I had to dial 911 to get the police to my home , etc... So now its a waiting game to re submit things to another board. I'm thinking they didn't not read my paper work, and maybe they thing this chick is still on island. We actually had to be moved to another base because she was stalking me! There is plenty of paper work i submitted on that as well. I have never cried so much, when i got that call. Kids are my life, and the possibility of never being able to have them in my home crushes me. I emailed 2 of my past parents, who are friends of mine, so see if they could write up a letter of reference for me, in hopes that it helps sway the decision of the "new" board. Ive been to the police dept, and I'm going back down to where i had my hearing tomorrow to try to get it removed off my record. I don't know, this all just sucks and will follow me for the rest of my husbands career
The other chick got a job at the school here on base, so something is just not right, I'm getting screwed in this deal.

I go into the Dr next week, i really think my depression is back. I battled it years ago, but with J getting deployed and the stress that A with his problems is putting me through, now this daycare stuff, i just don't know how much more i can take. I miss the states so bad. I'm suppose to be strong, and never let my "weak" side show, but i cant help it. I have no one to really talk to over here and calling my mom is just not the same. I have to keep up my happy face a while longer just until J goes, so that way he knows I'm ok, but I'm really not. I'm so scared for him, the kids. WTH am i going to tell them if something happens? What am I going to do? Such awful thoughts but its something that i think of daily

On a brighter note. We ordered the kids each one of these

http://http://www.hugahero.com/

While checking my flowers last week, i noticed something has been eating them. Look at the poop, does it look like a rabbit to you?

I did, so i moved my plants to the top of our outside refrigerator, then i noticed more poop. I'm like, sneaky rabbit, how did it get up here. So i move the plants out to a step

Then i seen something, do you see it?

There were not 1, not 2, but 3 of these nasty things eating my flowers!

So i did what any bug lover would do........ I threw them in the street!!!!

Don't want them eating the rest of my flowers =0)

Do you ever wish sometimes you could take back a friendship? Or what you thought was a friendship? My husband tells me that i let friends in to easily to my heart. I ended up getting used for all i have and hurt in the end. Wouldn't you know, that's how i feel right now and I'm so sick to my stomach. Every time i meet someone new, i tell J, i wont get close. Normally i don't. I keep to myself, in my house.
I had this young neighbor move in last year. It took me a year to get to know her, that's how much i keep to myself. I finally get to know her and she seems ok. Make a long story short, her friend who i met once starts stuff and adds me into it @@ So high school. Everything gets cleared up and the girl is looking like the ass, my "new" friend Jess and i start hanging out a lot, all summer. Now mind you, she use to hang with this other chick, but got sick of her crap and the whole fact she pulled an innocent person, me, into something because she is just jealous.
I help my friend though all this "young" family stuff she is going though and give her advice ect... I had been though most everything she was going though.
2 Weeks ago we were sitting outside, we live in a 4 plex and share the same porch, talking and she let me know her son was having a party on such date. Cool, we would be there but late, the kids had games. She told me she would give me an invitation later.
Fast forward to today. I haven't talked to my friend since 2 weeks ago, cause i felt like i was getting taking advantage of, and i needed to back off a bit. I noticed she had this chick at her house, who she stated she hated, that had caused all the grief with me and her ect... I'm so sick to my stomach. Today was my friends little boys b-day. We were not invited over for his today b-day. That other girl was. I'm trying to figure out why. She is still suppose to have a party i think on Sat. We never got an invitation, so I'm assuming we were uninvited since she is having the other chick come. I will post a poll on whether we should attend or not.
Something else that bothers me. We have had tons stuff at our house that we had invited her husband and her over to, even though we didn't know them well. Not once has she offered us an invitation to any BBQ she has held. Is that tacky? I think so. Instead of inviting people who care and respect her and her stuff, she would rather invite that other chick and her husband " cause the guys are friends" and stresses since they, Jess and her friend weren't talking, that it would be awkward at her house @@
I'm not jealous at all of any of this. I dont want to put others personal info on here, so the crap Ive been dealing with is brief. Ive spent so many hours with her crying in my house or sitting outside while she vented about the other girl, putting her personal stuff out to the world, talking bad about her ect. I guess i just don't want to see her hurt again, and i sure as hell wont be here if she needs support anymore. There is one thing if anyone must learn about me. I'm nice, will give you everything i have, you use me or screw me. I don't give second chances. I try but it doesn't work cause the shield just goes up in front of my heart.
Now for the poll, since we were told we would get an invitation, and never revieved one, should we go to the party or just not show?

Typhoon prep!

Yes you read that right, we have a typhoon in the works! Usually I'm following these as they form, but with how crazy things have been here, i guess i missed this one. Good ole Sinlaku will be here Friday!!!! As a cat 4 right now. Last year a cat 4 hit and turned in to a super and did lots of damage. Ruined out tarp for our house and this thing on our van! Here is the link if you want to follow the storm. It will be ripping us from the bottom of the island to the top! Ugh. http://http://www.typhoon2000.ph/





My camera came in yesterday, YAY!!! I spent some time last night reading up on it and i charged the battery, I'm a few minutes i will begin playing with it! Isn't it pretty? So much came with it. I'm thrilled!

My site is up and running!!! I got the rest of my scents i was waiting on, in the mail this morning. I'm pretty excited about that as well. I cant wait for the cooler weather and for Oct so i can decorate for Harvest!!

J will be home tomorrow. I miss him like crazy. He is suppose to stop in the gym in the morning and see me while he is down this way! Tomorrow is my day to sit with the kids! I turned in all my application stuff to be certified out here for home daycare. I let my certification from the states expire, so the process starts all over, but the good news is, i already have calls for care and I'm not even certified yet! lol

contest

My sweet baby girl is in a funniest baby picture contest. The managers of the store will be judging the pictures this weekend! While we were at the Exchange this past weekend, they had the board up with the few pics that had been submitted, so i took a pic =0).

Miss J is the top left!

J is in the field this week, so its just me and the kids hanging out. Today i went though A's room and cleaned it out. I hate this house!!! I'm so tired of mold, I'm tired of cleaning it. I'm tired of the crappy wall a/c units too, that blow, up! They have a lovely window right above it so all the cold air that comes out of the a/c, gets nice and hot from the window. Good thing there isn't a fan to blow it around in the rooms lol. I cant wait to move. I know every one's sicknesses will disappear when we leave this mold ridden house. And if maintenance comes one more time to paint over it, I'm going to scream lmao. They need to just condemn these and built fresh houses!

Tomorrow's chore will be to work on T's room. Her room there is crap everywhere @@. I need to re straighten it up, so she can keep it up again. i also need to do the yard work. Mow the lawn and pull the weeds in my flower garden. I hope its cooler tomorrow, or its going to have to wait til J gets home so i can do it at night!

I'm hoping the final order of my scents will be in the mail too, so i can get my site opened up!

Where did the week go?

Wow, its been busy around here.

Let see. We had a holiday Monday. Nothing special. Tues the kids went back to school and J had an extra day off, so we went and did some things. I went out to Tori Beach to the gift shop, and now my tarts are for sale!!!

Here is the store. Its small but very popular
Here are my tarts!!!!

I put my business cards around the baskets, Isn't it cute? lol

Thurs i had more running around. I took our cat T in to get declawed, went to my friends house who makes Miss J's bows. I took all Miss J's winter clothes and we matched up ribbon for her bows, and of course we talked. Her husband is deployed with a few guys from here and the wives fell though the cracks as far as getting info. So i came to the rescue. I gave her all the info i had on deployments, like the free childcare we get, ect... And our husbands are in the same unit here, so i can keep her informed of the family days.

I went back to the gift shop to take pics and to drop off a tart burner for display and my business cards. While i was in there, i got comments on my tarts, and i noticed there were a lot gone. I took inventory before i brought them =0).

On Friday i was able to relax. Well sort of. I had an issue with my son. I swear, i just want to break down. I wish there was someone who was going though the same thing as me, who i could talk to, cause I'm over this crap. J came home early around 630, so we headed off to the Exchange to buy him a new laptop. His older one, its only 3 years old, is really big and heavy. And i wanted him to have a smaller one to take on deployment with him.

Today we have baseball games and not sure what else. J has to leave tomorrow to go to the field. Our time with him is almost gone. This deployment is coming so fast. I hope it goes as fast! I need to get ready for the kids games.