Do you ever wish sometimes you could take back a friendship? Or what you thought was a friendship? My husband tells me that i let friends in to easily to my heart. I ended up getting used for all i have and hurt in the end. Wouldn't you know, that's how i feel right now and I'm so sick to my stomach. Every time i meet someone new, i tell J, i wont get close. Normally i don't. I keep to myself, in my house.
I had this young neighbor move in last year. It took me a year to get to know her, that's how much i keep to myself. I finally get to know her and she seems ok. Make a long story short, her friend who i met once starts stuff and adds me into it @@ So high school. Everything gets cleared up and the girl is looking like the ass, my "new" friend Jess and i start hanging out a lot, all summer. Now mind you, she use to hang with this other chick, but got sick of her crap and the whole fact she pulled an innocent person, me, into something because she is just jealous.
I help my friend though all this "young" family stuff she is going though and give her advice ect... I had been though most everything she was going though.
2 Weeks ago we were sitting outside, we live in a 4 plex and share the same porch, talking and she let me know her son was having a party on such date. Cool, we would be there but late, the kids had games. She told me she would give me an invitation later.
Fast forward to today. I haven't talked to my friend since 2 weeks ago, cause i felt like i was getting taking advantage of, and i needed to back off a bit. I noticed she had this chick at her house, who she stated she hated, that had caused all the grief with me and her ect... I'm so sick to my stomach. Today was my friends little boys b-day. We were not invited over for his today b-day. That other girl was. I'm trying to figure out why. She is still suppose to have a party i think on Sat. We never got an invitation, so I'm assuming we were uninvited since she is having the other chick come. I will post a poll on whether we should attend or not.
Something else that bothers me. We have had tons stuff at our house that we had invited her husband and her over to, even though we didn't know them well. Not once has she offered us an invitation to any BBQ she has held. Is that tacky? I think so. Instead of inviting people who care and respect her and her stuff, she would rather invite that other chick and her husband " cause the guys are friends" and stresses since they, Jess and her friend weren't talking, that it would be awkward at her house @@
I'm not jealous at all of any of this. I dont want to put others personal info on here, so the crap Ive been dealing with is brief. Ive spent so many hours with her crying in my house or sitting outside while she vented about the other girl, putting her personal stuff out to the world, talking bad about her ect. I guess i just don't want to see her hurt again, and i sure as hell wont be here if she needs support anymore. There is one thing if anyone must learn about me. I'm nice, will give you everything i have, you use me or screw me. I don't give second chances. I try but it doesn't work cause the shield just goes up in front of my heart.
Now for the poll, since we were told we would get an invitation, and never revieved one, should we go to the party or just not show?