My little girl is such a joy. Today she was singing her little heart out. Right before bed, she was reading a book. I cant believe how fast this time has gone. I look at my older 2 and realize they are growing so fast. When we came on this island, Taylor was just starting K and Avery was 3. Now i have a 7 & 8 yr old, In 2nd and 3rd grade. I cherish every moment i get with them.

I had my colposcopy on Thursday, while i was so nervous, i got a lot of past questions answered, like what the heck my " disorder" so to speak was called, when it was found in 2001. I had displasia. My Dr told me it looks like my body has fully healed its self since my last 2 biopsy's have come back ok. I still have to go in for yearly paps just cause of my history, even though i have never had a bad pap. She explained the colposcopy to me. i let her know about my wonderful period which has been coming twice a month, and the pain i still have on my right side. The periods are not normal she told me, so we decided to do a a biopsy on my uterus as well as get an ultrasound on my right side to make sure there is nothing going on.
During the Colpo, which burns btw, she did it everywhere that i had my surgery previously to make sure there were no more bad cells. She found some white spots. As she was telling me, i had tears rolling down my face.
I was hoping all this was done with years ago, but for now we have to wait and see. I will be put under to have the biopsy's done as well as the biopsy on my uterus. Depending on what my ultrasound comes back as, will determine if she is fixing something in my stomach or going in with a camera for a closer look. I'm really down about this, words cant even describe. Im praying everything comes back ok, cause i don't know how much more i can take right now. I go the end of DEC for my ultrasound and a week after that for my pre op appointment. Surgery will be sometime in Jan.